Dependence is bad. One should be able to stand on ones' own.
I met a man and found myself in a strangely familiar position. With each day that goes by I find myself wanting to spend more and more time with him. He's not a local so my 'time' is conversations on the phone. Nightly talks usually go until one or both is tired and has to go to sleep. Monday I could tell he was distracted so I hung up so he could do what he had to do. Tuesday he fell asleep on me about 15 mins in. On Weds. he went out and his 'phone died' so by the time he got home it was about 3am. No phone call - just some argumentative texts. (Silly me - feeling bad cuz I wanted to talk to him and for 3 nights I wasn't able to. I'll have to work on that.)
Now as I sit here on Thanksgiving I can't help but feel bad. I don't feel the same enthusiasm I felt earlier this week about us. He hasn't sent any texts today while celebrating with the same people he hung out with last night. Makes me feel stupid for missing him and wanting to talk to him. The feeling clearly isn't mutual. Sad.
Dependence is bad. I need to stop depending on him. I need to not need him.
Thursday, November 24, 2011
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