Where does my heart beat now? I've spent the better part of the past few years waiting. Waiting for a man whose heart has not been available. What's changed? Well for one he has finally broken away from the person who has seemed to have a strangle hold on him during this time. Broken is a good word - she hit him, couple of times. He has sworn on his grandmother's grave they will never get back together. I told him over one year ago I liked him. We've never discussed it. We are friends now. I wanted to be friends first before anything happened. I wasn't expecting to lose my job. Since that happened, we seem to have grown a bit closer. I just don't know how much longer I can sit by and wait for all this to happen. I know everything is moving as it should be. I wish I wasn't living each and every moment of it. It's like marking the passing minutes until Christmas.